I broke someone's heart today. I have a bad habit of doing that. About a year ago, men began actually paying attention to me- I don't know if it was because the men my age changed tastes, I became more attractive, or there was something in the water. At the risk of sounding superficial, ever since that point, I have come to realize how many men are not in my league. It's not to say that I am better than a lot of people, just different. This one is a little too serious, that one acts like I did when I was in high school. Because of the realization that not every man that looks my way is my type or wants the same thing, I have also come to learn not to lead them on.


When I began this adventurous season in my life, I was so enthralled with the affirmation, looks and compliments, that I could hardly stop myself from letting them carry on. Now, I know the damage it can do to the one or two that really invest themselves in me and I actually do hurt. I am different from other people my age. People my age like to date. Period. Dating, having sex, and having fun is what they're after, and if anything more comes out of it, then what a lovely perk. If not, no harm done. Being in a relationship with someone means something to me. After talking with some of my friends, I have come to realize what makes me different from them is that I look further into the future than how someone makes me feel. I am a very sarcastic person, I can talk to anyone and I can be really anyone's friend, but my "standards" are much higher for any potential boyfriend. The way I see it, anyone I date is my potential husband, and I filter accordingly. Why waste my time on someone who I find out really isn't a fit for me six months down the road?